Marriage

Marriage: the social institution under which a man and woman establish their decision to live as husband and wife by legal commitments, religious ceremonies, etc. Antonyms: separation.  (per dictionary.com)

"But at the beginning of creation God 'made them male and female.' 'For this reason a man will leave his father and mother and be united to his wife, and the two will become one flesh.' So they are no longer two, but one. Therefore what God has joined together, let man not separate."

                        Mark 10:6-9


  I believe in marriage. I believe marriage is HARD. I know marriage is hard. When I said my vows, whether it meant with Brandon before and now with Sley, I meant every. single. word. In good times and bad. In sickness and health. For better or for worse. My vows are the exact reason I stayed with Brandon for as long as I did, knowing he didnt love me and knowing he was cheating on me. God didn't promise things were always going to be good and it SUCKED that I got the worse end of it but I promised my faithfulness and I put everything I had in to keeping my marriage, even when all the odds were against me and eventually he would leave me.  

My heart aches for so many in broken homes. In today's world, it's nothing to get married one day and get divorced the next. To just give up when the going gets tough. To just so easily throw in the towel when you just aren't happy anymore. I don't think God intended marriage to be that way.   When people tell me they are getting divorced my stomach just sinks. I am no way better than anyone and I'm not pointing fingers. I know no two circumstances are the same.  

To be honest, the day Sley and I got married, all day I kept saying to him, "are you sure you want to do this? are we doing the right thing? you don't have to marry me...we can wait just a little while longer to make sure this is right..." I always worry if I'm doing the right thing and if I am doing God's will. I struggled with that at the beginning when Brandon left me, too. I thought that God would not be happy with me since I was getting divorced even though Brandon left. I knew he broke the covenant but I was devastated and needed God to help me. My husband left and I needed to know that my God wasn't going to leave me too.   It's nice to have a healthy marriage now. I am SO thankful for a husband who loves me as much as I love him and it is so evident! I pray for eveyone that is going through tough times. Don't give up. God is faithful.  

(please no one take this post offensive or personal....I have a heart for those going through something as I did and if I can help prevent that from happening in any way or listen or anything else, know that I am here and you are not alone!)