Wednesday, June 19, 2013

Starting Week 2

Last week was just what I needed. God knew I needed this too. I started my period Thursday and while it hurt, instead of my focus being on Facebook and posting my woes or looking at all the people I know being pregnant, I focussed on my hurt and prayed. I also emailed a fellow blogger Amy about my struggles because she has been there, too. She was so encouraging and left me with a Scripture I have at my computer desk in front of me all day:

"But these things I plan won't happen right away. Slowly, steadily, SURELY, the time approaches when the vision will be fulfilled. If it seems slow, be patient! For it will surely take place. It will not be late BY A SINGLE DAY." --Habakkuk 2:3

She then wrote this post about some things we were talking about. While starting my period hurt my heart, I was able to refocus and know in my heart...GOD HAS GOT THIS. starts week 2 of no Facebook. I've heard a lot of people asking if Sley and I had split and NO we have not. Isn't it crazy I get off of Facebook for my well being and people automatically assume the worst? Myself included.

Oh well, it's been a breath of fresh air. And you know what else was a breath of fresh air? Last night's bible study with my girls. Much needed. Much appreciated. My God knows what I need better than I do and I'm so thankful He provides!!

So yea, no baby, no Facebook, but plenty of HOPE!

Thanks for the prayers!

Wednesday, June 12, 2013

Taking a Break

I know I won’t have as many readers for this post since I won’t be posting the link to Facebook. I am currently doing a bible school with 5 other amazing women. The study is on Esther and how hard it is being a woman. One thing I struggle with is bitterness. It’s so easy to post on Facebook to make your life seem amazing, and maybe it really is that amazing, but my God is the only one perfect so there are always going to be times when things are not perfect. I get so bitter with all the flaunting on Facebook of who has it better than anyone else. We were discussing this last night and there is a lady in our group that doesn’t have Facebook and is VERY Anti-Facebook. She said that she really believes Facebook is the DEVIL (enter in the voice of Adam Sandler). Anyway, she was explaining that without Facebook, you only have time to worry about yourself and things that are important to you. She said, “Ignorance is bliss” and I truly believe that. She also said, “I’m sure there are going to be times when I’m in the Food Lion and a girl I went to school with comes up to me and we start talking and she mentions just getting back from a cruise…that’s fine, yea I want to go but I’m happy for her and then I will walk away and go get my Pop Tarts…out of sight, out of mind.” I really think there is something to that.

While in discussion, she issued us a challenge: to deactivate Facebook for a week to see how our attitude improved. Two of us girls out of the 5 that have Facebook agreed; the others said they would think about it, which is fine! I know that I need this. Sley makes little comments about me being on my phone all the time so this will help me redirect my focus toward my relationship with God and my husband.

I’ve already received a text asking if I was ok since I wasn’t on Facebook anymore and I explained why I was doing it. I also deleted all of the games on my phone (even Hay Day and my $40k in coins I had been saving up to buy a Jam Maker…) (Yes I know it’s ridiculous). So now I have LOTS of free time. During lunch, I normally go sit in my car and check out Facebook so now I’ll be doing my Bible Study in my car during lunch.

I reached for my phone out of habit so many times last night. It’s an eye opener of how much I really do stay on the phone!

So, everyone keep Julie and I in your prayers. It’s going to be a long week but I know this is going to make us so much stronger!